One More: The Last…

Poison

This afternoon, I received the call I’m always waiting for – the first of the twice weekly lab results.

This afternoon, I received news I’ve been waiting to hear for 14 months – “Chase’s counts are coming back, and quickly.  We’ll repeat labs on Thursday, but barring anything really crazy, he should be ready to restart chemo on Monday. This is it!

This is it.  The last chemo.  The last spinal tap.  The last

A small part of me is choking as I’m writing “the last“.  The part of my brain that reads and absorbs cancer research is screaming “The last?  You know better than that! This cancer is never over!”

But tonight, for now, for next week, it’s the last.

Joy.

I can’t believe we’re actually at this point.  And for all the rest that we have yet to walk, we’ll take it as it comes…

Moment by moment.

It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed.” Deuteronomy 31:8