Of Tests, Hot Chocolate, and Blessings

My apologies for the recent lack of blog updates.  I will get to the last few weeks another time.  For now I’d like to update on this week alone.

In the morning, Chase begins the first of two full days of tests and appointments with his doctors for post-chemo evaluation.  We’d greatly appreciate prayer, especially in regards to the full brain and spine MRI and the potential ear surgery which will collectively have him under anesthesia for 2-3 hours tomorrow afternoon.

We consider ourselves incredibly blessed to have made it to this point… to even be discussing a “post chemo” life… what a gift!

Right now, the snow is falling outside and because many aspects of Chase’s traumatized brain are still breathtakingly sharp, he reminded me that I promised -last year- hot chocolate and “The Polar Express” when the first snow fell.  So the siblings lie snuggled on couches in the dark, gleefully starting the holiday season too early.  But really?  Can one ever start too early?  It’s the time that we set aside to be thankful…for Jesus, for love, for life.  There is no time limit on those things.  And while a hot drink and Christmas movie hardly seem focused on such great themes, the very opening sounds and smells threw me back in time a year and the radiation burns and the cancerous spinal taps and the crushing knowledge that the season of 2012 might be the last.

There will never not be apprehension about all the tests and what we’ll hear on days like tomorrow, but right now, in this moment, I’m reminded that we’re incredibly blessed.

Moment by moment.