“I’m afraid, Mom. It’s going to be really loud, isn’t it?” Chase, cuddled on the couch this chill December afternoon, voices his worries…
Three quarters of a century ago today, terrible things happened half a world away and boats sank and people died and the country went to war again. December 7.
Six years ago, late in the evening, as the sounds of the Christmas music barely faded in the halls of the church, I rushed to the hospital and Aidan was born and there was joy and a new baby son. December 7.
And now, we sit on the couch under the shadow of the almost-winter clouds and there’s another shadow too. Tomorrow comes the MRI and we sit and talk because today, on December 7 – day of all sorts of remembrance – we sit and look ahead and not back because tomorrow they’ll peer inside his white head again and see if there’s been any change in six weeks.
It’s poetic and strange how life weaves the beauty and pain in every memory of each moment and they’re all mixed together in a life symphony that requires unending grace.
Chase is scared and rightfully so. Tomorrow will mark his first “awake” MRI in two years. It’ll be mercifully short, but for 5-10 minutes, he will have to face one of his worst fears. The noise. It will surround him and he knows it and he’s frightened. He can’t escape it and this child who is never still must lay perfectly quiet in his terror for 5-10 minutes or an eternity – whichever comes first – yet another time in his little cancer life when the only way out is through. And how our hearts wish to cover him from this, but we cannot. So, through it, he goes. And he says “Jesus will be with me…and Daddy too.”
As you think of Chase tonight and tomorrow, will you please pray for him? Pray for peace to surround him as he goes into this very hard place and does this very hard thing? …and then, pray for us as our challenge comes moments after the MRI when we speak and decide over the pictures with his neurosurgeon.
Moment by moment…
“You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you.” Isaiah 26:3
Praying for your sweet and brave boy, that God will surround him with His perfect peace as he’s in this vey hard place and praying for both you and Bob at the challenges that may be ahead. We love you all!
Along with others, I’ll be praying.
Dear, Little Angel. God will watch over you and keep you safe in His arms, always and forever.
We’re praying Ellie. Love you.
Prayers for Chase and you. All of the angels and saints will be with you. Do not be afraid.