“The thing is… you need to focus on the positive: children like Chase are now living long enough to deal with secondary cancers.”
“Oh, good. Thyroid cancer is so easy.”
“It isn’t like its brain cancer.”
“You’ve been through this all before, so it’ll won’t be that big a deal.”
“It could be so much worse…”
“Mom, I had a dream that they only way they could get to my thyroid is to take off my whole head. Will they cut off my head while I’m in surgery?”
“I just keep remembering what it was like to lay in bed with the lights of the ambulance on the ceiling and you wouldn’t let us come out and nobody would tell us anything. Will you tell us this time, Mom? Would you tell me if Chase were dying?”
“I wish I could go back and be a baby, because then I wouldn’t have any cancer. Cancer hurts me, mom.”
“I don’t understand… but I can’t stop crying, mom. Why can’t I stop crying?”
“Mommy, am I going to die this time?”
“This hope is a strong and trustworthy anchor for our souls.”
“God himself will be with them. He will wipe every tear from their eyes, and there will be no more death or sorrow or crying or pain.”
Moment by moment.
having been through my son’s cancer. And having been through my mom’s thyroid cancer.
It all just sucks!!! People just don’t get it. I’m sorry.
But looking at your son’s head- I almost miss that fuzz on my son. Just rubbing it, feeling it against my cheek….
Oh Ellie — yes, I hear that song in my head now, and it’s my prayer at this very moment for you and these dear children. Be there, Jesus, just be there!